Some days I feel like its not even worth the fight anymore. Some days I wonder why I have even held on for so long—-Today is one of those days.
#relapsed #alone #hurt #depressed
Venting :/
They say they can only understand if the person wants them to…..how can they say that when I tried to get them to understand, but they pushed it aside and ignored it like I never said anything???!!!!! Then one tries to point out my arm and say they aren’t happy when they see it…..they don’t understand at all :-( None of them do. My pain is deep, I tried reaching out, but I was only pushed under-so no more reaching out to them. They will never understand how or why I do what I do. I’m starting to feel alone in these battles :( I’d like to run far-away from all of the hurt, so that I can breathe for a moment-but I can’t. I cant stand this-at all. I feel drained, but yet again I feel like going and eating an entire meal, but then not eat anything except a cup of jello for the next few days :( I hate me. I hate myself. I wish I was able to disappear when things get like this :( I hate this. Why do I have to be such a freak :(
Tuesday is quickly approaching :( Oh how I hate this so freaking bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why did I have to put myself through this :/ I am so stupid
Honestly dont know what to do…..I’ve put myself in a bad spot, and now I have to make this decision :( Ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im not feeling so well. Body feels heavy. Not sick just side effects kicking my butt :( gotta keep going though. :( going to be a rough weekend.
Some things are getting the best of me :( Some things are really hurting inside :( Maybe its time again to reach for my best friend. *Sigh* Exhausted mentally an physically
Dunno anymore…im left wanting to pull my knees up to my chin :-( having a hard time….
